"Dedication and commitment are what transfer dreams into realities."

"Failure is not failure but the opportunity to begin again...more intelligently." (if that ain't the truth)

"God gives talent. Work transforms talent into genius." "It's never too late to be what you might have been. " (unless your dead...) "This chance will stand before you only once. " (not when it comes to life and death situations)

"Running has given me the courage to start, the determination to keep trying, and the childlike spirit to have fun along the way. Run often and run long, but never outrun your joy of running. "

"Above all, train hard, eat light, and avoid television and people with bad attitudes." (that is not possible, everyone has a bad atitude at one point or another)

"The answers to the big questions in running are the same as the answers to the big questions in life. Just do the best you can with what you've got, and that includes your stride length."

Maybe this meant something to you, I hope it did....
Jeffrey

Yea i love that picture. Many thanks to opal. Opal many thanks. Cause other then the fact that I look like a man running in my under wear its a great picture :)




I actually love this picture. You wanna know why?? Cause that right there contains every hope, dream, thought, prayer, every ounce of their soul that you can see. That right there is what speaks volumes to a human being. After all you look into someones eyes when you talk to them, its all about eye contact, that connection that can only be got when you see one another. yea that one piece of the body does much more then just see. It is an extension of your very soul into the outside world.

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had an experience tonight. First batch of "special cookies" I have ever made. or actually i should just say it was the dough cause it has to freeze over night, go figure. Anyway it was an experience thats for sure. When I say special cookies though I mean cookies that aren't just put a chocolate chip in and watch it rise, no these cookies involve like multiple steps on multiple days or as my mommy put it "More quality mother son bonding time :) (mommy knows best they say)"
anyway the actual putting it all together. Now most people would say this is simple, I mean after all, all you are doing is reading the recipe, putting it all in a bowl and mixing it together. How hard could it be...?? Right... Well you forget I'm challenged in the kitchen. Not to mention my mom decided to make this a triple batch (that means tripe the recipe for anybody who didn't catch my cooking lingo). So now I have to multiply these lovely fractions out, its easy when its 1/2 but then when its 1 3/4 holy cow that was a brain buster. It's 5 1/4 by the way ;) No the greatest thing was watching me put everything together, cause when I would pour sugar or any other substance in I would make a mess of it. don't ask me how I do it, I just do. So the kitchen looked like my lawn out front, full of white powder when I was done :). I thought my mom would knife me with the spoon. In the end though it should turn out yummy and tasty cause hey its hard to mess up a good batch of cookies right :)

Went shopping today too. That was fun, cept it involved spending 90 dollars and when you don't have a job, that money is hard to earn back. It will be worth it though when I see their faces on Christmas :) Ahh 4 days of school left this year. Then 6 months and we are done and its XC training time. Lets just skip track and go right to XC training time. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

your not alone,
Jeffrey

Crash and Burn

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relieve and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face they day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Fun day so far so lets keep the action packed adventure going

today started off interesting. Church Christmas pageant.


kids in angelic costumes + kids in costumes doing speaking parts = adorable scene

Theres my math for the weekend.


we had sunday school class today.. it was pretty interesting. We are looking at the book "The Prayer of Jabez for Teens" and I must say I find this book interesting. I read it and feel like my life is completely useless but hey it happens to everyone at one point or another ( I hope). Found a quote in there today though, I think its the coolest quote I have heard in a long while.

"You are right where God wants you... a prayer away from a miracle"
Wow thats all I have to say. I love that quote.

Sat in church today, pastor Dave (yes thats what we call him- actually the teens just call him PD for short) was leading our silent prayer (time for us to share our own private prayers with the LORD) and I was contemplating (hey its okay to think during prayer time you prayer Nazi's :P) what my life is like. There was more brackets in that then actual sentence but whatever. I came to the conclusion that really I haven't lived for anything, I mean I say I do this or I did this small thing for such and such a person everyday but really my life is a routine. Wake up at the same time, take the same shower, put in the same contacts, eat the same type of foods, catch that same stupid bus, go to the same stupid school with the same stupid teachers with the same kids every day, and then run the same routes, after which I come home and take that same stupid shower all over again. My life has no flexibility, no joy, no room for anything over exciting. Its stupid. My prayer time changed into a massive "God please please please use me for your purposes so I can look at myself at the end of the day and feel like I accomplished something instead of just existing."

Went to niece and nephews birthday party yesterday, they are soo cute, I love kids. Seriously I LOVE KIDS. Screw all teenagers, kids are the rocking people. yea that feels good. Im going off to run. have a good one.

Sincerely (good times)
Jeffrey

pictures because I felt like it so deal.

Update??

All right... Well I don't really know how many people still read this since I deleted everything from my profile but hey if you still do more power to you. :)

Lately I have basically sucked it up in school, I don't know why, but my grades are just slipping. No surprise its mostly in English class, I can't tell if Kunick grades me bad because she hates me or if I do bad because I hate her. Actually I wouldn't say I hate her, I would just say I very strongly dislike how opinionated she is and how I can't get out my voice without being trampled by her and her bullied approach to teaching. to me her job is to mediate the group discussions, not preach her beliefs in a Hitler Nazi manner. I mean let the class bring up the points and debate it out, she should stay there to keep it civilized. After all we have the rights to our own opinions and I don't want any teacher stepping in on my rights and beliefs just because she feels she is superior since she has a "college degree" certifying her in English. Older doesn't make you smarter Mrs. Kunick, it just makes you more experienced, you would do well to learn the difference. Anyway got a C+ on the transcendentalist society project (zach blamed me for the low grade) and then I got a C on the essay for that topic as well so my grade this quarter = a solid suckiness. Then U.S. History which is my strongest class is a disaster in the wings, after dominating andrew jarratt 1st quarter i stopped caring about the class altogether and basically now I kinda hang on the balance of losing my A which of course just goes to show you can't blow off a class just because its easy. Carelessness will kill you if you don't respect it. wow you would do good to learn that jeffrey.
Bah, at least I have running though. Always have running (cept for those periods where stupidity either breaks something or involves me running into locker and destroying my skinny legs). running in winter is the most enjoyable and the hardest thing I may do. Its so enjoyable because of the snow and the way the sun strikes it or it will fall on your face while you run and make it a picture perfect landscape. However in that same token it creates ice hazards which you can't even see and it also makes it unbearably cold somedays. Like I come back and I can't move my jaw for minutes because of the severity of the cold. Those are not fun days let me tell you. The best thing though, and this by far makes winter running worth every ounce of crap and pain that goes into it; was running down the Milwaukee River last year. yes you heard me right, running down that river. Nate, Andy, and I ran on top of the river last year when it was like 2 feet of snow on top and a very very solid foundation so not to worry. It was sooooo cool. Especially since I was faster then both of them on top of the snow because I weighed almost 30 pounds less so I didn't sink into the snow at all like they did :) Then we got to the ice skating rink and ran into the snow banks. That was hilariously fun/stupidly cold. oh well i would trade anything to go back to that moment with nate. I miss nate, I miss his humor and his way of exuting confidence. Just like when this year ends I will Andy for his humor and happiness and the way he makes running so much more fun. Or for the fact that he his expert at our school and once he leaves none of us will know a fartlek from a 10 mile run. Bah I hate people getting older.
In the way of life overall though, this past few weeks sucked. Too many reasons to list. Not to mention gym and projects/ swimming. gosh i despise that class.

wow I feel worthless... all i did was whine and complain about my life, I really am sorry about this everybody. I wish I could cheer you up, maybe create a smile across your faces but its hard to write a happy post when you yourself aren't happy, nor are smiling. That really truly does make if difficult.

Till the very end,
Jeffrey

I made a pledge to myself

I will not go on AIM more then 2 hours a week. So basically i get one day at 2 hours. Thats my pledge, I'm just hoping to stick to it. Have a fun time lame AIM :P