Wednesday, August 23, 2006

I've got a new Sensation, new sensation

Soooooooooooooooooo, the title pretty much makes zero sense and matches none of this post so don't read too far into it if you will.

I don't know about everyone else, but I know that when I go on AIM there is this weird feeling that if someone doesn't IM me they don't want to talk to me. That doesn't mean it's necessarily true (although I get the good feeling that many people really don't want to), just that I think it's the case. Kinda like "If they don't IM me, they don't want to talk to me and therefore I shouldn't bother them." Half the time I bet the other person could be sitting there thinking the exact same thing. It's just that simple matter of getting over the hump and saying hello, but then there is always that dead time in an internet conversation, that time when you have nothing to say and somebody expects something but there is nothing and that just solidifies the feeling that they really didn't want to talk to you. I'm probably just being paranoid here, or just overthinking the entire process of talking, but am I that far off?? Talking on the internet is so lame, so unfriendly, impersonal. Yet we do it anyways. I don't know why. I can't really make sense of it all. Maybe its the security of knowing you can say whatever you want and plead that someone else was saying it, or that it could be interpreted different ways then it was meant. It's really a sign of how much trouble people our age have socializing with others. I can't speak for other people, but I know that I hate talking on the phone (also due to the dead time in a convo or the fact that things can't be as funny on the phone for some reason) and I despise leaving phones messages. I find the internet conversations to often times be incredibly boring and often ask myself why I am sitting here frying a hole in my brain, the reason probably also comes back to that hole in my brain. I wish I could say I can change overnight and just not come on, I know i can do it, I have done it before for long periods of time. Still, its hard, its like an addiction, I want to know whats going on, I want to talk to people for sometime and find out whose doing what, where. Why is that? What is there to gain from these pixilated screens and plastic keys. Astigmatisms in the eyes, thats for sure. Anyways, back to the main point here. Does anyone else get the feeling that if you sign on and someone doesn't talk to you that clearly means they don't want to talk to you?? It really sucks because there are soo many things I want to say to some people, but I can never bring myself to say it because I simply feel like they don't want to talk to me.

7 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

nah i get it too. i thought i was the only loser who annylazed (sp?) that stuff though. its wierd how unsocialable we are. maybe its becasue people are so backstabbing and judgamental. and as for why we go online- for me i sometimes just wanna talk to someone and its too late at night or you arnt on a very best friend basis where you would just randomly call them up for the heck of it. Sometimes its midnight and you just need to vent to someone about something and you can't call at that time- but to ur main point ya i think we all get that feeling. online you never know emotions.

8/23/2006 05:28:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Jeffrey don't fear when people don't instantly send you messages. Usually if I dont intiate a convo with my friends that sign on is cause I might be busy checking something, or having a more serious convo one on one with someone else, or have like 5 people talking to me all at once. Just say hi and if they dont send you anything back, dont stress cause even then it may not mean they dont want to talk to you. But, alas, I still sometimes get the same feeling that they dont want to talk to me. I guess I worry more about people stressing about me not wanting to talk to them and then getting mad at me about it. idk

8/23/2006 06:04:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

There are only a few people I really want to talk to online and the others I wouldn't mind talking to if they messaged me. The funny thing is I have about 100 people on it (rough guess). It's not that I don't want to talk to the other people I just don't neccessarily have anything to say to them at the moment.

8/25/2006 11:00:00 AM  
Blogger Kyle Higgins said...

hmm on AIM i have about 200 people on my buddy list and there are only about 10 that I talk to alot and probly only 30 more that i talk to at all.

8/28/2006 09:39:00 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey there, i just thought i would let you know that i didn't sign off, haha my computer ran out of batteries, so i had to "switch to a power outlet" lol but yeah, it doesn't give you a warning, it just turns off haha yeah well talk to you later,
~Katie

8/28/2006 10:49:00 PM  
Blogger UncleFluffy said...

Aman be nice :)

8/29/2006 07:52:00 AM  
Blogger I-lean said...

Sometimes, jeffrey, i come on and you're on, and i don't im you right away. Then you don't im me, and i think you don't want to, etc. It appears we're in the same predicament. ;-)

8/29/2006 06:23:00 PM  

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