Yup this is true

Today I watched the movie Forrest Gump. I have never seen this before and I found it in our basement last night, I have heard a lot about it so I was really intrigued to watch it. It wasn't what I expected at first, but let me tell you; it was 20 times better then I expected. All I had heard about the movie was that Forrest runs across the nation, which to me is all a movie needs to be insanely cool. But there was so much more to it, the message behind it. i don't think a movie has ever touched me more then Forrest Gump did. Like I know this may seem completely sad and girly but I was crying at the end I felt so bad for the guy, and while I know he is just an actor and all... well you can't help but get touched by him. He loved unconditionally, treated everyone fairly and throughout it all held true to himself. But when he loses his mother to cancer and his wife to AID's.. idk, I felt that he was ripped off in life. But you know what, he never looked down, never blamed the world. he just went on with is life and helped as many other people as he could. I loved this movie, I mean I loved it. Its one of my all time favorites. Who knew you could learn so much from a movie. wow I am blown away.

Kids are so cool

if that isn't the cutest thing I have ever seen.

running again :)

Okay first things first of course, Musical.

I was surprised by how much fun the musical actually was. when I signed up I didn't think it would be quite what it was. First of all I want to say it is quite a committment, I mean just for that one week i thought it was bad, but for the entire cast, especially the leads that had to be unbearable. 2 months of that... wow. thats impressive. But I enjoyed the musical a lot and I hope everyone else did too.

okay secondly its running time again!!! Track is in 105 days (is that right lauren??) It will change when you read this since today is monday night, but that is a lot of time and I hope to use it all. I know this may be premature (like a lot) but would as many of you as possible come out to cheer everyone on. It's a lot easier to run when you have people cheering you on at every turn. I would greatly appreciate it and I know everyone else would too. thank you!!!

Shout out to all you runners out there!!!! If you love running put it in here. We have the greatest hobby alive (personally speaking here Eileen).

have a good Thanksgiving everybody!!

I thought that was a cool picture so i put it in. Can you guess what it is?? I will give you a hint, you see it every day but you can never touch behind it. Good Luck.

Bad bad weekend

This weekend hasn't even gone on for 24 hours and already its been just terrible. Firday started out like a pile of crap and eventually worked its way up to being a pile of you know what. then this morning we had musical practice and it was basically messed up because we had to move this castle thing around a billion times then found out we don't have to move it all except when we might have to move it in this one case which makes no sense but w/e. Then i sat there after having an "argument"(if you will)with keely over this stupid English project, got yelled at by my mom for staying after 12 to learn how to do the ropes. sat here and waited for zach on this dumb project so we couldn't go to poker and instead have to work on this. I don't know, just a bad bad weekend. running yesterday felt so weird, I felt completely and incoherently outer body. As if i wasn't even running so that was weird. then i came back and something felt outta place. Like I wasn't where I was supposed to be type thing. The whole day felt like that, some nagging feeling like I was missing something very important yet I don't know what it was. When I was at home, I feel asleep on the computer, as in actually on the keyboard. Yea that was smooth, almost like slapping myself in the face with a fly swatter oh yea smooth. And that was at only 7 at night. Still I told myself I would wake up happy because I always do, I never stay mad, sad or angry from the night before. But I woke up just completely out of it, although many would tell you I was never in it. I miss my friends soo much, and I miss someone else soo much, really I miss you.

Ever just get one of those days??

Today I have been just reflecting a lot. My mind keeps shifting around randomly to a lot of things that I haven't thought about in a long time, and lots of those things I feel bad about. I mean I promised myself I would cure cancer by the time I turned 16 when I was in 4th Grade!! And now I look back at the past 6 years and say "Well did you even step up to the plate and try??" and I don't have to look deep to know that I really didn't, I was a lot of talk but no action. It hurts when I think of things I promised myself I would do, but in the end just never did it. Why didn't I just do this I ask myself soo many times, and never do I have a satisfactory answer. Why do we go out and search for 'ourselves' when honestly it's there all the time?? what secrets do you have to go out and search for that aren't right there to begin with if you are only yourself to begin with?

why do I even bother writing these posts anymore anyways?? no one ever responds anymore and at times I wonder if my friends actually read this... I'm kinda afraid its only like Mr. Mckormick or the special K of Canada and that really does nothing to reassure my rising fears.

Word of the day (courtesy of two running females :P)

smitten

adj 1: (used in combination) affected by something overwhelming; "conscience-smitten"; "awe-struck" [syn: stricken, struck] 2: marked by foolish or unreasoning fondness; "she was crazy about him"; "gaga over the rock group's new album"; "he was infatuated with her" [syn: crazy, dotty, gaga, enamored, infatuated, in love, soft on(p), taken with(p)

Yea i said something to the effect of smitten and they whip out the dictionarial terminology. These girls represent our track team... yea I know pray for girls track ;)

OKay this is in conclusion, wrapping it up, giving it out, have a good night and be a sweet sweet delight :)

Go Nicky!!!!

State (sorry this took sooo long)

first i want to say if you see this before Sunday there will be no pictures in it because I won't have my film back yet, and even if it is sunday there may be no pictures because they were unbelievably blurry because you try taking pictures when you just sprinted 300 meters from spot to spot to just catch a glimpse of Andy flying past.

But here we go, i will just give brief highlights, if yuo want to know specifics, hook me up and i will give you the down low 411 scooparoo. (yes i know i just said scooparoo- sounds like scooby doo all right!!)

1. Meeting at the high school at noon and discovering that the "van" was actually just a rented minivan for this sole purpose of driving our lazy butts up there.
2. The 3 hour car ride up to Steven's Point where we listened to some of Kriegel's sweet tunes, threw around more insults then zellner throws pitches, and stopped at a cousin sub's which had foamy soap which brogs then picked on me for the entire trip because i came out jumping because they had foamy soap :).
3. Arriving at getting our rooms only to come to the realization that the xbox i brought up wouldn't work on the hotel's tv because the cable jack was locked up. Of course kriegels old school sega would work though :P
4. going out to some park to let Andy run (sorry Andy no one ran with you :( ) and then while we were out there, we had 3 contests between Lucas, Ben, Brogs, Kriegel and I. the first one was a swinging contest on 5 separate swings all lined up. Kriegel proposed it and off we went, Lucas and I tied for the win (then Ben proceeded on a bet from Brogs that he couldn't fit his entire body into a baby swing.. needless to say... he lost that bet :)
Second game was an obstacle course on a child's playground (yes i realize we are the coolest people alive). Surprisingly Lucas was a quick bugger and won with a time of 29 seconds (i love it how i took last with 41 seconds) even kriegel beat me and he hit his head like 3 times.
Last game was a competition to see who could stand on these posts stuck in the ground for longer. Lucas and I also won this one and Kriegel upon falling proceeded to call us "girls" because of our uncanny ability to balance for a long time. He's just a sore loser :P
5. going to a restaurant and passing a boatload of cars all littered with paint saying "good luck at state team" or "you rock johnny boy!!" and coming to the realization that next year for Cross we are doing that or this year for track, decking out our pimpin mini-van.
6. getting to the italian restaurant and discovering at least an hour long wait. going somewhere else and ordering take out so we can eat pasta at the hotel.
7. going in the hot tub and then jumping in the pool
8. running down to K-mart to buy a cable converter for the tv just to play xbox.
9. playing xbox for about 3 hours straight with lucas and ben (andy played a little bit too); then having brogs and kriegel watch us play and laugh at our zombified state while we played.
10. waking up in the morning and all of a sudden walking back into the room to behold Nick Berndt sitting on a bed playing Halo 2. Low and behold God had sent a messenger.
11. about 20 minutes before we need to leave locking lucas up in a clothing cabinet and not letting him out until the coaches say its time to go (the entire time he was doing smeagol impersenations. Nick ben and i were dying of laughter.
12. Lucas, ben, Nick, and I all having to either ditch the car a block before state entrance or duck under our bags in order to not be seen in the van and not pay extra for parking (hey we are a cheap school ) succedding in our efforts and getting in for free.
13. getting there and seeing literally over 10,000 people all coming out to watch my sport. Like you could ask the 10,000 people in Grafton what XC is and maybe 9750 would say they have no idea or its skiing so that was cool.
14. Watching Claire Medusa set a new state record in 14 minutes and 13 seconds. thats fast folks.
15. Taking billions of pictures (even though its like 20) and doing it all on a beautiful day.
16. Ahh the good stuff, running around to get the mile splits of every boys race.
17. Watching Andy run was possibly one of the most inspirtational things of my life. he looked so calm and so poised, even though on the inside we all knew he was nervous as anyone alive. But when he went out there, he looked so ready and so determined, I wished so bad i could be there running right next to him, but alas not to be. however this is his story not mine, so on with it. He ran an amazing race, 10th at the mile, 6th at the 2 mile and 19th at the finish. he ran so fast. Even if he didn't PR when I saw him running he was moving faster then I have seen him on any other course. He ran with his heart and it showed.
18. Watching Markson get his butt kicked during the Division 1 race but still have Whitefish Bay run away with the title.
19. The "van" ride home was pretty idk. I fell asleep in the back and talked never. at this point i was just sick of being picked on by Brogs and Kriegel so I just completely ignored them. we got home, went our separate ways and that was the trip to state. although i must say that the van ride back was pretty nice looking with the sun setting. Pretty sight.
20. need an even twenty so somehow this is getting added in. taking a picture of Andy's sweet running shoes with the bible verse printed in black ink on the side. If the picture turns out im putting it on here cause it was a sweet picture.
21. screw even 20, im not done yet. I should describe this event out to you in detail, so here we go. When we had to hide in order to avoid the parking people it was a bit crazy. First Brogs and Kriegel said you guys better get down and hide unless you want to pay 5 dollars to get in. At first we just laughed because of course we thought they were kidding. but then it turns out.. they weren't, so a block away we are scrambling to hide. Nick berndt like jumps out of the van while its practically still moving and sprints across a golf field to enter (completely legal ;) Lucas crawled down in between andy's row of seats and the back and put all of his bags over top and was completely covered. Ben and I... well we kinda got stuck together like i mean together (ugh how embarassing) in the way back with like no cover, one guy looks in there and we are easily done for, and how bad would that look. first being caught trying to scandalize the state meet, then looking well gay. oh yea that would represent Grafton well hehe (okay im done seriously blame lauren for this random addition)
all right i hope you all enjoyed reading this. I certainly enjoyed writing it for you. Have a good week my friends :)

nice job at state Andy :)

adios ;)