Happy Easter everybody!!

Just got back from church and I am taking a small bit of time to type up a post before mi familia arrives.

I'm going to be honest with you all, Easter service today was largely uneventful and basically worthless in my opinion. It didn't have any special feel or meaning today, maybe it was the fact that it was the earliest service and thus there were few people there, but it was just another Sunday to me. I know that sounds bad, but thats how I felt. It seems like every year holidays and special events seem to lose more meaning in the world. Or maybe I have just become dull to the same routines every year, maybe thats it; every year it's the same stories with the same scriptures with the same songs. It starts to become a bit dull after a while. I know, I'm such a bad Christian so poo on you for thinking that :P

And for the .02 people who read this thing still, which Christian holiday is more significant: Christmas or Easter?? I say Christmas, my mom says Easter. What do you think?

I kinda feel like dropping out of track in some ways. After our North Shore Conference Indoor Meet I feel so bad about how I performed, (along with a few of our past meets) that I can't stand feeling sucky anymore. I can almost guarantee you I won't quit, but I can't stand feeling like a failure due to poor running at every meet. At some point you have to step it up and actually compete and I feel like I never do that. It absolutely kills me because I know I can run so much faster but I just don't do it. Then I wonder why my results are never quite what I hoped for. It's completely lame and I am disgusted. screw training cause you can suck anways :P