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Good luck Andy!!!
Break 17 on Saturday!

three day week this week...

why does that sound so exciting, yet so depressing all at the same time? I don't know maybe its the fact that it signifies only 3 days i get to see my friends, but at the same time only 3 days with Mr. Heberleins massive "foaming away at the mouth" complex.

you know XC ended yesterday.. we scored 108 points, Sheybogan falls scored 93. 15 points difference between us and state.. 15 points. that means if each guy had passed just 3 more people it was ours. or to be more realistic.. if 4 of us (cause andy was pushed to his limits at the front of the pack and probably couldn't pass anymore people idk though i wasn't up there with him) would have passed 4 people a piece.. once again it was ours. but the what if games aren't going to get us there, and neither are excuses. The fact is, we were close, and given most other days, i honestly think that this upcoming saturday we would be going instead of sheb falls. Still Andy ran an awesome race and congrats to you Andy on making it to state. you earned it entirely. you have been a awesome role model to me in just these 2 seasons and I hate to see you go, I will miss you greatly.

now off the subject of running because it honestly depresses me more then the sight of tennis balls in Sir Aman's hands ;).

I have to say i feel kinda bad that at times this year I have turned down opportunities to hang out with my friends because of cross or just because i am lame and stupid. I really feel bad about that, and I don't want to do that anymore. I miss a lot of my friends so much, like Lucas and Nicky. I hang out with them so little now.. I feel so bad. I miss them. We should hang out :) just like the days of old. big thing of popcorn, video games, friends :)

whoa its getting late, sorry got to cut this post short. Have a nice week everybody!!

GOOD LUCK TO MY RUNNING BUDDIES!!!

All I wish to say in this post is a simple good luck to everyone on the XC team who is running at Sectionals tomorrow.

So for the girls: Good luck to Lauren Moroder, Lauren Brooks, Amy Hayhurst, Carrissa Duenkel, and Taylor Rafferty.

For the guys: Good luck to Andy Ashenden, Ben Connard, Lucas Pfaffenroth, Brad Wigh, Andrew Jarratt, Kyle Hallemen, and Eric Einerson. Let's go to State guys. We can do it!!

Prayers would be greatly appreciated from everybody for us please. Everyone has really earned their right to come this far, so please pray for our success as a team.

you guys made this fall rock, no matter how we finish tomorrow it has been an honor and a privelege to run with you all. :)

GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY!!!!

Forever your friend,
Jeffrey

A down and out day...

3 of the varsity guys. Brad -the red head. Lucas- the guy on the left with bongy? hair. Ben- guy in the middle with the not red and not bongy hair. 3 of the very very important varsity guys who basically determine if our team goes to state. While all 5 guys need to do well in the scoring range, these 3 are a majority and so hold much of the power. Hopefully we will all do well at sectionals.





This picture reminds me of my race yesterday in some ways. I can recall times where I would look down at my own feet and often wonder if I would be able to finish. Or sometimes when my legs felt like lead, and I just felt like I was hardly moving at all. Sooo slow. It's pretty sad though. Yesterday's race was a one I don't ever wish to repeat. I just wish I personally would stop being such an inconsistent runner and finally just act like the number two guy they expect me to be. I wish I would stop collapsing under the pressure of doing good. Of letting my mind win out over my body. Of letting myself get beat mentally before I ever give myself a chance physically. I lost the race yesterday before I even began to run. that's something I am ashamed of.



On one side note though, the JV guys proved to be an exciting race. Noteworthy times were especially Eric Einerson (freshman 19:45 i do believe) and Andrew Jarratt (sophmore 19:47). And for the most part, the guys all PR'd for the last meet, which is fantastic.

It's depressing now though. For the most part all of the seniors are gone. With the exception of Andy I don't expect any of the other seniors to be at practice next week, and that means that yesterday was probably one of the last chances I will ever have to hang out with Aman, Alex, Nygel, Erica, Abby, and Bret. other then track, I won't ever probably see all of you. I'm going to miss you guys, and I want the few of you who can read this to know that you have made a tremendous impact on my life. good luck to you all :)

Back to a question post. :)

All right since I haven't written one of these in a while, I felt it was due time that I wrote something down questioning some issue with the world. Well maybe not an issue, but something to do with the world.


I don't know about anybody else, but I have noticed lately that mother nature seems to be getting a bit violent on us. Last December there was the tsunami in south asia and the northern Indian Ocean which killed over 100,000 people. then this year both Hurricane Rita and Hurricane Katrina, along with these recent Earthquakes, not to mention the tornadoes that ripped into Wisconsin this past summer. Now I'm really not one to believe in the idea of mother nature getting revenge on people, but this is just plain ridiculous. It seems you can't go a week without some massive catastrophe being reported. I wonder if our world is falling apart or something. I have no idea, but hey this is about you people. What are your opinions??


And my one other topic is similar to this. In the news the other night, I heard that Milwaukee had eclipsed the mark of 100 homicides this year. 100 homicides... In one year. 10 months. Years not even over. think about it, 100 lives snuffed out, and probably for no better then reason then petty rage or jealousy or anger. Why?? Why is the world this way, why is it when you turn on the news, when you read the newspaper, when you even look around at the world, that you see so much violence, so much hate, so much want, jealousy, rage, incessant want?? I know the world will never be peaceful, the world will never be free of murder and death and destruction. thats one of those things that has to happen sometimes. Without war there would be no peace. Can anyone explain our world to me?? Why when I watch the news I am ashamed. I am afraid of what this world will become. That someday my own children might have to face a world littered with violence. Thats no world I want to pass on. So why can't it change? Why...

They have a place for People like me

That place is called the crazy house. the padded room. The walls with the nice bright lights and the very nice men who come and give you "happy juice". You all know how it works. you go in because they are worried something is wrong with you. when in actuality, everything is clearly wrong with you. yea. Thats right. I used to live there. Now I call that place my own mind. My chamber of thought. Harry Potter had a Chamber of Secrets, but I have a chamber of open space to attempt and think with, cept my feeble wisps of attempt that some call a brain just happens to fail on many occassions.
Now I know many of you are wondering the point of this massively long and odd post. And to tell you the truth, I can't find one. I felt like writing, so write I am. why I do'nt know. Why I don't care.
But you have to admit.. it takes a crazy person to love running. a very very crazy person. Thats why everyone on the Cross country team is insane. Because we do it every single day. hehe i love classifying myself as crazy. It's actually quite exciting. Now there is a point to this loony tune (hey courtesy of one bananers of a song that line was), I don't just like to talk all wack. sometimes I just feel like maybe, maybe if you read between the lines, you can see the truth behind my eyes. Every wonder if what is said, has a meaning that is said not at all. Honestly just think about it, every word, does it mean something both said and unsaid. wait don't think about it, because if you try to figure this out, you will lose your mind. heck maybe some of you have already lost it. But that still doesn't mean try to figure it out.
Look inside my soul and you will learn who I am. and you will see me. But watch me as I am, and you will only see me.
Friendships are 10 times harder to keep then they are to create. The bond though, it is something to hard to separate. Be a friend, it just may change your life.
Jeffrey

This weekend was amazing. simply amazing.

Okay just to start this off. I know I said weekend but I must touch upon Thursday. We had Slinger on Thursday and we took 3rd!!! 3rd out of 12 teams with only 5 guys is really good!! And everyone PR'd, like the entire Cross Country team. That meet is phenemonal.
Friday was the Homecoming Game and the speed workout in the pool. Oh and TPing houses too (although apparently we failed at that- go figure). I blame Brian Chin :P
Saturday :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) We had an amazing speed workout in the morning. And when I say amazing, I mean amazingly hard. 10 minutes at a normal distance pace, then we had to run just under our 5K race pace for 15 minutes, then drop back to a normal 10 minute distance run pace. But all of that without stopping. It was very... exhausting. But exhilirating. Anyway the more important parts of the day. (that would of course be the part where I got to sit at home and play video games ;). But no honestly, Homecoming night was just perfect?? I can't come up with the right word. It's somewhere between perfect and heavenly. Even though they virtually mean the same thing. Pictures at Opals (thank you so so so much Opal!!) then dinner at Fireridge with the massive crowd of sophomores (that was insane!!), the time at the ashendens, then one of the best nights of my life at the dance. It was honestly just an amazing night, to top off an amazing day, to top off an amazing week, with an amazing girl. Thank you so much. I can't help but say, the LORD has blessed me in every way.

P.S. We easily pwned your house in TP :P

P.S.S- the 25 billion people who were at the massive fiesta at Opal's house:
Opal (duh)
Eileen
Lauren M
Kara
Brian Chin (aka-noob)
Corey
James (aka-driving maniac)
Dillon (aka-idiot who went with driving maniac {hence why he idiot})
Tom
Jeffrey
Sami G
Mia M
Colleen
Molly Pfaffenroth (yea i can spell)
Matt S
Mike K
Jackie R
Marnie Y
Rachel H
Melissa (yea Ik- who is it- idk??)
Some random swim team girl whom I don't know
ahh I feel like I'm forgetting somebody. Dang. If I left you out I'm sorry. I got a grand total of 3 hours of sleep last night so I kinda can't remember anything.