Icky :(

Just got back from Laser Invite. I feel so crappy right now. I keep on wondering what is up with me, because for some reason I can't run a good time (by my standards I mean). Like at Wausau last week I ran a 18:53, and today I ran a 18:29, and man this is horrid. I ran an 18:29 at Tremper over a month ago. I don't understand it, my PR is 17:57 but I can't even get anywhere near that. I thought as the season progresses you are supposed to improve.... not suck it up. I don't know, the coaches say I try to kill myself lately in the work outs in order to get better, and instead of getting better I am actually hurting myself. Plus running a 5:45 first mile doesn't help (shudders). Ahh sorry I feel like I'm whining, I just thought I would put my problem out there because it's bothering me greatly. today was cool though, ben and brad got their first cross country medals and lucas and i just missed medaling by two places. So not that bad.
But then on the ride home, i walked in the car my dad said first thing "You let them pass you didn't you?" and I said "Yea Lucas beat me by maybe a foot." then he says "I don't care what you want to say if you let them pass you its your fault you don't win. You can't say anything because you let them beat you." And then he said in his classical sprinter mode "I don't care what it takes you but if there is someone in front of you, i don't even care if you have to kill yourself you don't let them beat you." And right there I was angry. Angry. Like I was ready to explode at him, but I knew if I did, I was walking home. Arg.
But then Lucas today took 13th and got his letter (go lucas!!) And Brad and Ben both PR'd (just missed their letters) but they both medaled!!! and Andy he just missed PRing by 3 seconds and he took 17th in the toughest race of the day. He did spectacularly. good day by the guys overall. The girls races were a bit iffy since Lauren brooks is out with stress fracture. But I do believe for the most part they did really well.. I don't know for sure since I was resting for large portions of girls races (sorry girls).
And now this thursday we have slinger. Hopefully things improve there.. If they don't... I don't know I may try and kill myself at Conference then. And that would be stupid. But I would do it.

Your Eyes ;)

love I get so lost, sometimes
days pass and this emptiness fills my heart
when I want to run away
I drive off in my car
but whichever way I go
I come back to the place you are

all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

in your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes
oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light
the heat I see in your eyes

love, I don't like to see so much pain
so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away
I get so tired of working so hard for our survival
I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive

and all my instincts, they return
and the grand facade, so soon will burn
without a noise, without my pride
I reach out from the inside

in your eyes
the light the heat
in your eyes
I am complete
in your eyes
I see the doorway to a thousand churches
in your eyes
the resolution of all the fruitless searches
in your eyes
I see the light and the heat
in your eyes
oh, I want to be that complete
I want to touch the light,
the heat I see in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes
in your eyes in your eyes

Can't wait!!! :)

TOMORROW NIGHT LAUREN!!!! ITS IN 18 HOURS, 5 MINUTES, AND 13 SECONDS!!! I CAN'T WAIT.

What my heart desires ;)

Ahh running.... So fun :). The picture of the female is not and I repeat not there because she is a female (Kyle :P) no that picture is there because it represents the runner going down the long road ahead. The above picture with the shadow of men running is just that.











the picture below is one of my favorites. All you can see is the runners feet, but its so amazing to just watch the foot in front of you go and go and go. Thats just such an amazing feat, I can't explain it, just amazing :)

Just smile, please just smile and be happy. Everyone just be happy.

SMILE!!!! IDC IF YOU HATE ME, LOVE ME, WANT TO SHOOT ME, OR WANT TO HUG ME. JUST SMILE!!! NO ONE LOVES A PARTY POOPER AND TRUST ME IF YOU AREN'T SMILING YOU ARE DEFINITELY A PARTY POOPER. SO JUST LET LOOSE, BRING OUT THOSE PEARLY WHITES, EVEN IF THEY MAY BE YELLOW. SMILING, THE ULTIMATE CURE TO A BAD DAY.

West Allis (holy cow this was insane)

Okay so today West Allis the meet. wow. wow. wow.
First of all, congratulations must go out to Lauren moroder for medaling today. And congratulations is like an understatement for Andy he absolutely owned. So nice job you two, awesome job.
I'm really only going to get into the varsity guys just because I figure everyone else will tell you about their races at some point. But yea we had 5 guys on varsity today, and thats the number you need to score points as a team, so we scored. Thats good sign number one. Brad, Ben, and Lucas holy crapamoolie!!! They all dropped a minute (yes an entire minute!!) from their times at Kenosha. Thats insanely amazing. Like holy cow nice job guys. We now stand a chance this year all because of you 3.
Andy was well Andy and dominated time wise. 17:11 is just sick, like puke out your guts sick for this time of year. And what's scary is he took 10th with that!!! 10th!!!! Thats like outrageous. guy who won ran a 15:57!!!!! That could win state.. Seriously sickening.
I kinda sucked it up. No improvement, just sucked. I was disgusted with myself once I was done, I feel like I let the team down so much. they all had improved and i just flat lined. didn't medal when I went out in the front, had a solid pace going and then died. I just hate it. I was so afraid of doing this!!! It's just arg. It's so bad that Kriegel and Brogelman nicknamed me the "village idiot". i was originally the "worthless villager" but now im the "village idiot". yea wow, now tomorrow it's time to go crazy work out.
But still the varsity guys did amazing!!! Nice job everyone :). And Lauren congratulations on the medal ;) and the PR. And I never got into the Jv guys even, they did really good. But thats a story for another time.

village idiot :(

5 days till school starts :(

Ahh sadness abound. this is terrible, school starts up again.
I can't wait to see everybody but I just don't want it to start yet, just not yet. Please go away school!!! go away!!!





this is the start to the junior boys race alone at Kenosha Tremper. For today at West Allis you would have to take all these people and multiply this by about two. Yes the starts get quite crazy. And there are three Grafton boys in this picture, they are on the right side, one is Lucas with his hair flying back, Ben isright next to him and you can only see Brad's red hair over the boy with the headband on.

ahh today will be a nightmare. Really it's my first serious Varsity race of the year and I just feel like there's so much pressure to do well. Like my insides are already squirming at the thought and I still have over 7 hours or so until my race. Ahh I love running just not the nervess that comes before a race.

Hee last night was interesting. After Cross country practice I went down and watched some tennis (okay so more accurately Hillary, Erica, Andrew and I just stood there talking with Rachel Bartz) and saw The chinchilla killa and just a whole boat load of people. Then we were all going to go home but we are all cool and just biked down to Hillarys house to intersect her when she got out of her car. We then stood on the end of her driveway for 2 and a half hours talking, yea on the end of her driveway. It was honestly the most pointless conversation alive, but it was just fun. Plain old fun. Cept I got grounded for it.. but hey it was at least a fun bonding experience with my friends.

Best part though had to be when Kara and Opal came driving past, and I just happen to turn around and see Kara in the front seat and I just burst out "IT'S KARA!!!" really loud and then it finally dawned on her who I was and then Opal like eye-balled me the entire way down 17th ave. that was hilarious cause Kara took years to figure out that whoa thats Jeffrey. apparently my face was priceless though when I was just like screaming. go figure *innocent shrug of shoulders*

good luck today everybody. Lets pwn ;)